Okay to Forget

Sometimes its hard to even comprehend what goes through our minds. Do you even have one of those moments where you think of something but soon after completely forget your thought?

Ever wonder why that happens? Why you just forget? Maybe you weren't ready for it.

One these days you will remember and when that day arrives, you will appreciate and understand what it meant more than you would have the first time that thought of it.

Sometimes, I lay awake at night, simply starring into the darkness, thinking all of these amazing things that I know when I awake in the morning I wont remember. But still I do it, because at that moment when these great things come to me, it makes me feel wonderful, amazing. And because I know sometimes in the future I will need those great things to help guide my hand in the right directions.

Alot of people say that if you forget alot, that you have a bad memory and I suppose in some cases that may be true. But I also think that it's because no one thinks of the reason I thought of, that sometimes things are forgotten for a reason.

Sometimes its because you need to remember it later, sometimes its because that memory was too tragic, sometimes because you really just forgot.

Its okay for you to forget sometimes, as long as you don't forget to remember when the times is right.

Day 3: The Perfect First Date

I can't really say what the perfect first date would be. As long as I have fun on the date, it really doesn't matter what we do. Some things that we could do though we be see a movie, not a romantic one though, cause that would just be kinda stupid and obvious. More along the lines of a comedy, something to lighten the mood and make us both laugh and have fun. If its the summer then going to the beach would be a good idea, nice cool water and something to snack on. Regardless of what we do though, we should be able to talk easily to one another and the convo shouldn't get too serious. Keeping it more friendly but still a little romantic on the first day is always the best thing that someone can do. Don't jump right into making out and hanging onto each other, take it slow the first few days, maybe a small polite kiss at the end of the date. Simply is always best in the beginning.

Day 2: Something I Ate Today

So this morning before school I went on over to BK and got myself a Breakfast Muffin Sandwich. It was really good and is normally one of the only things I would eat from there for breakfast. I don't really eat breakfast all that much anyways, but today there was HSPE testing for all of the sophomores until 10 and I had nothing to do until then. Right now its still only 9 so I'm just sitting in the library at school waiting for school to start. Luckily there is only 3 hours of school today once it starts so it'll be an easy day for me.

Day 1: Picture of Self

So I noticed that there aren't many things on here that tells you much about me. Sure, your know how I complain about my family, how I feel about them and some of my friends, but there isn't much there that tells you who I am. I don't want anyone to assume who I am just by what I've said about others so far, so I've decided to do this 30 Day Challenge. I'll be posting pictures and descriptions for 30 days, maybe not consecutive days but I'll get them up eventually.

This first day is a picture of myself and a description of how my day was.

This picture was taken on Monday, March 7, 2011.

For some stupid reason I cannot for the life of me remember where this picture was taken, but I do remember that this was an awesome day.

This turned out to be a really good day, me and E rolled all day, starting at school during advisory and until we went to bed that night.  It was a very adventurous day to say the least. Throughout the day we hung out with various people our friend T who we had bought the rolls from stayed with us for most of the day. With my friend A who took us to the bank during 5 period and hung out with us for that period until I met up with my mom to get food to take back to my house. After that we met with my bf M and went and smoked a couple bowls in Pine Ridge and went to Esperance and chilled there for a little. M left after that and me, E and T went to Veterns park to met up with her friends and then go to this guys house to chill. There we smoked some more and I got to smoke out for a pool noodle for the first time. It was interesting. Around 630-7ish me and E left T there and went back to my house where we watched tv for a little before her dad came and picked her up. That was an amazing day, and I hope that we have more like it in the future sometime.

Imaginary Friend

Ever feel as though no one saw you, no one understands you, no one really cares?
Ever feel like you don't care about what others think of you, that it doesn't matter what they say?
Ever feel that even though know one knows who you really are that you were perfectly content with that fact?

I feel like that often, as I sit in class each day and I contently do my work by myself, with little commentary from those that are my peers and friends or when I sit in my room each day when I get home. Its as though I was everyones imaginary friend, perfectly happy to be left alone most of the time. Silent as always until one of them talks to me on the few occasions that they do throughout the day.

Do I feel ignored? Sometimes,yes, I wish that it was more then it is and that I would have a deeper connection with the people that I care so much for.

Am I sad that they do this to me? Truthfully, I don't think that I could be if I wanted too.

This little act we play as friend and imaginary friend is perfect for someone like me, who loves to be alone and loves to be with people at the same time. It means that I can always be around the people I care about without them having to worry about me. It gives me the space and privacy that I love to have, and the right amount of interaction with people to keep me from losing my mind.

I am the strong silent type, the one that will always be there in the end no matter what happens, the one that no matter who else leaves because they can't handle whats doing on will push forward through all the confusion and stress to help the ones I care about in their times of weakness and sadness.

My friends, most of them, are the type to drift here and there and not know what they are doing half of the time and don't really understand everything that goes on around them. Sometimes they need someone to tell them whats going on so that they don't get lost in the world they live in.

That is what I'm for I suppose. I'm the voice of reason among us, the one to know most of whats going on so that at least someone isn't confused. Just like an imaginary friend, I am the one they turn to when know one else has the answer that they are looking for or simply when they need someone to talk to that will never tell their secrets to anyone.

I'm happy to be there for my friends, even if I am only imaginary to them.